i agree with you all.. and just to let you all know, i would never take into consideration that mail order bride sh**. it's exactly why i'm so determined to do things the right way.. work hard now and it'll all pay off later. .right? well, i strongly believe that more can be gained if there's a little sacrified, but in this case it'll be the memories with my family that i'd be sacrificing.. again... still dazed and confused.
actually.. i think i know what i should do. it's just hard to take the first step and do it.