Yeah I'm greatful that he was honest.
Anyway, a minor complication arose.
I wrote a whole bunch of 'closure' emails last night - everything was nice and polite...expression of feelings...accepting we can stay friends after some time apart....
Then I get a call from him and he sounds different now...that 'tone' of voicoe that wanted to hook up with other girls had gone and he sounded back to himself...and he said he wasn't sure what he wanted.
I actually think that maybe a combination of his parents intensely increasing their dislike for me (which for him, means we can never get together anyway), he hung out with a few girls (maybe had a more chillax time than with me since there are no expectations and it's fun and all), coupled with a few of our recent minor communication problems...well maybe all this has steered him to thining differently?
I know it sounds like I'm giving him a massive benefit of the doubt...but to be honest, I went through a similar period with him. He was being a bit of an arsehole and neglecting our relationship. I hung out with friends and saw some nice qualities in other guys and was confused at that stage to whether I wanted to be with him. But he changed and became a better person and all that debacle is nothing but a small piece of history in the back of my mind which I hardly even recall.
I just wonder if he's going through the same things.
The way he talked....just sounded so sincere agian. Just like 1 week ago when everything was fine. And unfortunately I became optimistic again but we both agreed to give him some more time.
So as of the moment, my mind has basically considered that we've broken up...but this extra avenue of hope is sorta driving me crazy!!!
But alas, I'd give up anything for him so I will see what he thinks. If he has any thoughts of reviving our relationship, I'll make sure I question him hard and also reconsider if it's worth it - considering what has happened can easily happen again now....
But yeah... just giving him space.
Always sucks to be the victim of this stuff though. You miss them. They don't miss you. You go nuts