Scotty I know your feelings are whirling like a wicked storm, and you are trying to reason with all this. You want this dream so bad you are willing to convince yourself at every turn that there has to be a way to make it happen.
The reality of it is she is not truly your dream come true, she is just a mirage. In time the realization that this isn't going to happen will come.....you know this, so sorry we can't make it any different for you.