waiting for the woman i love

[Junsui]

Oh, it was him who brought it back up.

[Rosebud]

LOL yea Junsui.... not me!!! lol even still... I gotta look at those dates!

[Junsui]

lol Yeah. I just thought it was funny he came back months later to reply to Indigo.

[JOHNB]

hello again

rosebud - just a little correction for you : i was not sleeping with a married woman - she was not even engaged, for what it matters. in the sense that ''sleeping with'' means ''having sex with'' we did not go that far because at the time we both wanted to wait for her split with her boyfriend as it was the honourable thing to do. we just lay there and cuddled.

now on 08.12.2005 we are silently decided on our futures without even speaking about the past which is obviously for her a sojourn on to the other side. it seems like telepathy - but we hold our tongues and neither of us speaks about it. it may sound strange but dont forget that we work for the same company.

i can hear you saying - perhaps we should talk about it ? meaning i ask her what is happening ? you know what - i dont want to lose her as a friend so i will shut up.

to answer your question indigosoul, her cancer is abated but her forced menopause (zoladex injections to reduce the recurrence of cancerous genes) has changed her mental and physical emotions towards me (and her boyfriend too)

sooooooo i give up and although i love her still, i feel that i would not like to continue this ''relationship'' as it was driving me mad after a very tough divorce - call it a rebound.

apart from venting on LF i have spoken to noone on this subject - sorry if you guys thought i was a bit wierd or a control freak with anger management difficulties

but it is not the case - i was just madly in love and frustrated and wanted to hear the ''right words''. i guess i heard them now....

nowadays i keep myself to myself and try to meet other people. it is difficult in geneva switzerland but anyway.

i wish you all the best

john b

[Lloyd95]

Quit bumping this....

[JOHNB]

dear llyod95

what does bumping this mean ?

john b

[Lloyd95]

Bringing it back from the dead....

[indigosoul]

dear llyod95

what does bumping this mean ?

john b

ahahahahaha! Good for you B.

Someone on here once said (paraphrased), that if its really worth waiting for, you will. Simple. But I think your analysis of it maybe being a divorce rebound could be right. Only you know for sure. Best.