lol as I said already-infatuation, heads in the clouds
OP you have already been in two long term relationships (that we know of) that were both dysfunctional and hear you are again rushing into something new without taking any time to heal from the last one. Can you see a pattern here??
Make sure you are making the right choices and this time-don't stick your head in the clouds or wear your heart on your sleeve or start talking weddings and babies etc until you are sure you know this woman well enough to be making any commitments or promises to her.
You sound like a love junkie (in love with the idea of love) or simply terrified of being alone.. Make the right choices for you as you only get a few real chances at happiness.