Eco, it's pretty cool that you are questioning these things. Keep questioning. Even te skeptics will tell you that, but let your gut lead you. That's animal instinct that cannot be reasoned away, though it can be silenced after many years of training. I find that when I pay attention to it, instead of ignoring it, I stay out of more trouble.
You should go to Burning Man. Google it. I just came back from it. ****ing awesome.