i have a lot, lost a lot, i'm just unhappy

[laughingface]

maybe i do have a lot of problem with my self...
i was always carefree, and very nutural towards things,....hum...maybe a little sad towards a lot of things lately.
with my boyfriend, i do make him laugh and let him have a good time when we spent time together. but he can still feel sometimes i don't care about him as much as he cares about me. lately he felt i still have things and people in my mind. he doesn't like that. i know no one would be happy if their relationship partner is thinking of someone else, but at the same time i feel my past should be respected. so when he is blaming me for thinking about my ex, i just don't have anything to say to him.

i'm not even sure if i'm in depression or not anymore~ because my life is going on normal now..i don't feel hurt anymore, and i'm able to laugh at funny things happening around me. which in impossible two years ago~
but i'm tired for most of the time.....

[min0ui]

god i know just how u feel.. i m still in love with my ex even tho he cheated and he wanted to make things right again bt that trust has gone, even tho i love him with all my heart i just can't let myself go back.. all we have to do is move on . u have to move on, its hard bt thats the only way. i sometimes just sit and cry really wanting to forget and have him back bt.. i have a new bf now and he has a gf. this guy gives me everything , he adores me. i don't love him yet bt i am trying to caz its the only way to deal with thinks as i can't go back.. sometimes we wish things could be easier... do ur best to try and move on . hope i could help