wow chazza thanks for more great advice. I know exactly what you mean about going back in time and changing such and such. I spoke to her today out of neccessity and it was slightly better, less hatred but she convincingly doesnt want me anymore. She said she no longer needs a boy to make her happy but she also had the nerve to say that if i love her in two years i should find her and try harder. Downside was that she said she knew the boy she slept with from before me and wanted it to happen... thats hurts ALOT. Just thinking of her with someone else makes me want to vomit. To be honest i feel incredibly used- the line "i dont need you anymore and have other people in my life now" really cut deep. I just really miss who she was and what we meant to eachother and feel like she has suddenly changed and it hurts. Her name is phie hall (facebook) if anyone wants to put a face to the picture. How are you getting on now Chazza?