first and foremost i like the way you are open. honestly i never considered you a slut. your actions are up to you and right now, you're not cheating. you seem to be content with a feeling that you can't help yourself. it's not a good one but honestly i believe that you're taking this out of proportion.
see the things that bothers me about this whole situation is that you only seem to be inflatuated with this security guard. believe me, i've been in your situation many times before, in fact, once a gave up a pretty good relationship that i have had. it took me a long time to realize what i have lsot and when i actually seen it, it was already too late. now i know that you've probably have had many lectures about this so i won't go on and on. what i believe is that you're thinking about this other guy too much. there is this girl that i am checking out but she and her ex on still talking, possibly getting back together. i'm not sure of the outcome, but yet i still am waiting. i too believe that i talk about her too much, yet waiting for her to either go back to the bf or move on.
the way that you talk about this stranger though, i'm guessing that he has stolen something, and i don't believe that it's your heart. people catch your eyes all the time and the fact that you said, you'd like to go out with this guy but later marry your current bf means that he's not very high on your list. i'd say get it out of your system now because later when you meet the right one, you'll know the difference. raverboy