Hmm yeah. Ive been suicidal, and I never told anyone about it until a long time afterwards. Deep down she doesnt want to die, I think she just sees it as a way to end it, but when it comes to the crunch she cant. Maybe it is attention seeking towards me, I dont know. She's wanted to kill herself before for years but never told anyone until I told her about my attempts, and eventually she shared hers too.
She says she took a whole load of pills - though I dont know what - and cut herself before the pills knocked her out... but she still wont talk to me properly, and it took all day to get that much out of her so I dont know.
I guess Im just waiting for her now, to talk to me when shes ready, or whatever. She knows I'm here.
Fu.ck, this is exhausting.
"When I was 4 years old, they tried to test my IQ.
They showed me this picture of 3 oranges and a
pear. They asked me which one was different and
did not belong. They taught me different was
wrong."
- Ani DiFranco -