Don't cry, don't regret and don't blame
Weak find the whip, willing find freedom
Towards the sun, carry your name
In warm hands you are given
Ask the wind for the way
Uncertainty's gone, your path will unravel
Accept all as it is and do not blame
God or the Devil
~Born to Live - Mavrik~
You're just hurting yourself. Remember, life is what you make it. Life's not going to feel sorry for you, in fact, it doesn't give a shit. Sometimes you need to go out and find what you want and make it yours. Or, you can keep living in this bubble of self-pity you're portraying. That won't get you anywhere though.
Funny you should say that, because life also doesn't care if I go sell drugs and go house to house removing people's heads with crowbars.
You owe it to yourself to work on something! You've gotten some good advice on here, your life will never be better until you do things to try to make it better. Nothing worth doing is easy and for you right now, it's not easy to try to be positive or do something that doesn't align with your general attitude that life sucks. I get it! You're in a rut right now, but you gotta dig yourself out.
As for being a 20 year-old virgin, who cares!! Everyone takes things at their own pace - there is no right or wrong way to do anything. You're only 20, you've got years to figure out what life is all about. I guarantee you that in the next 20 years, you'll look back at this stage in your life and realize what a small, passing phase it was.
True, but you know what, the LAW cares.