NOLA Loves Me.

[Mathias]

By the way, I'll have an update tonight...

[vashti]

You guys are killing me.

[Junket]

You guys are killing me.

Mathias is a genius.

Gimme a break, look how big that second post alone was!

Plus at least you have something to look forward to when you come to the forums.

Hooray for LF story time!

[Mathias]

Mathias is a genius.

Gimme a break, look how big that second post alone was!

Plus at least you have something to look forward to when you come to the forums.

Hooray for LF story time!

If you can top the twist of my story's ending, I'll be impressed.

[Junket]

If you can top the twist of my story's ending, I'll be impressed.

Have you already posted it?

If so give me a link!

[Gigabitch]

I've been trying to remember which thread that was....

[Mathias]

I've been trying to remember which thread that was....

True confessions, broken hearts forum.

[misombra]

ahhh frizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

[Junket]

11/24/06

I got up groggy as all hell at 7AM.

“Dude I am so tired.” Says Will next to me.

I just stare at him.

"What…?”

“You’re ****in’ tired? HAHAHAHA!”

“Huh? What?”

Shaking my head I just walk off to get breakfast.

I was on a different team than she, but we were all in the same area, so I saw Ames and her family periodically through the day though I exchanged few words with her all of which were only in regards to the work we were doing.

It was Will’s first time to the NOLA, and we were down in the 9th ward, one of the most publicized (though not necessarily most damaged) area that got hit by the surge. I walked him around a bit to show him the damage. I’m numb to it now, but he was in complete awe. As we were comin’ around the block we saw Ames and most of her family driving off to work on a different project. Her dad stopped the car and there was a few joking words exchanged between me and her brother-in-law Phil. We then came across Amy’s sister Mary (the wife of said brother-in-law). I had met them both before when I went with Amy to Texas.

They’re really cool. I was talking with her for a while about things in general, and somehow we got on the topic of eye surgery. It was silly, but I believe it’s vital for me to mention these interactions.

As a heads up, keep in mind Amy from the previous year had already spoken about me to Mary, so Mary already knew stuff was goin’ on.

I just didn’t know how much she knew.

As I mentioned in the last post, me and Ames never got to talk as we planned.

I ended up goin’ out with Will and my two other team mates and texted Ames.

Me: Takin’ it easy? Now I don’t know much about bein’ sick but I think you should get some shut eye.

Her: Yeah- I’m gonna drop off kenda at Tipitinas and then just come back here and just watch a movie or something. Sorry I’m missing hang out time!
10:18pm 11/24/06

Now I could’ve pushed the subject we had on hold, but I knew Ames had a long day and she was coughin’ up her lungs and had no sleep from our talks the night before, I’d rather she get better so I let it go for that night.

Who wants to see some god damn resolution to all of this?

Yeah, now imagine how I felt.

[vashti]

How many installments are we talking about here, Frasbee?

[Junket]

How many installments are we talking about here, Frasbee?

Let's see...

11/25...

I can end it on 11/25.

Sorry about all the seperate postings, but this is also a form of reflection for myself. It's a lot for me to go over which is why I'm doing it this way.

I'll probably post something relating to this but in a different thread.

But 11/25 is pretty much where we'll find resolution.

So one more entry I suppose.

[Junket]

11/25/06

Here we go guys, I know it seems like I’ve just been tryin’ to torture you all by posting this in increments. But like I said, I’m kinda of using this for documentation and reflective purposes for myself (I’m actually typing this all in Microsoft Word then copying it over to the forums).

It’s a lot for me to go through especially since I didn’t record anything while I was there.

With that out of the way…

So it’s Saturday. I woke up that morning at 6AM when everybody gets up at 7AM. I dressed and stepped outside and sat on the steps of the church. It was a bit chilly, but I wanted to catch Ames as she was comin’ across the street. I was out there for about 45 minutes and she never came. So I went to get ready for work.

Last day for projects of the week as everybody has off on Sunday. It wasn’t always like that. We used to operate 7 days a week, Sunday used to just operate at half capacity. But that’s all besides the point.

Anyway, so I go out with my two team mates, Megan and Manda and my friend Will to do finishing work on a plaster house.

I hate finishing work. Heh, my team mates used to hate me because I’d start a house, but as soon as it’d get down to the studs and pullin’ nails I’d pass the house off to one of them. Add that to the fact my mind was still distracted with Amy, I wasn’t having the most pleasant day. Fortunately, we still managed to finish the house and get back pretty early without having to start a second job.

After we get back, and I clean myself up from all the dust and mold, I sought out Ames. I found her in the office doin’ some business with another staff member. I asked her how her days was and she just gave a short answer, barely looking up from her papers before somebody came in requesting her attention.

At this point I was feeling quite put out.

So I sat outside the office on a bench for probably 20 minutes. I was getting irritated to say the least. I left and spoke to Will for a bit then came back right as Amy was going into a back room to file a few papers. I stopped in and crouched down to where she was.

“This is just awkward for you isn’t it?”

“Huh? What do you mean?”

“This, just all of this. I feel like you’re just avoiding me now.”

“I’m not I swear, it’s just I go into this work mode and it’s all I can focus on. I feel bad I want to hang out with you guys but I have all this shit to do.”

“Well, how about after dinner, you come find me, alright?”

Now, I’ve forgotten to mention this so far. But I was barely eating those past few days. I’d start and I’d just lose my appetite within the first few bites. I acted dumb to the reasons, but I knew it was side effect of my stresses over Amy. I’d be hungry, load up my plate, then eat a few bites and end up throwing it away.

After dinner I chucked my full plate and went into the bunk house and started reading a book Kenda had bought for me. I kept checking my phone for the time. Manda (I had already told her about me and Amy) comes up to my bunk and tells me Amy was gonna run a few errands and be back.

(Might I also note, that Amy had confessed she told Kenda about us. So most of the team at this point already knew about us.)

Great, I thought. I figured she was findin’ a way to blow me off. That this is the way it’s all gonna end.

From: Amy Allen
Want to run a few errands with me?
6:59pm 11/25/96

Me- Sure.
Her- Where are ya?

I stepped outside to the corner.

Me- First and Dryades.

She comes out and tells me she had a grab a few things from her apartment and then we head out.

I had never seen her talk so much. I just sat quietly and watched her talk and talk and talk. Tryin’ to read what this behavior meant.

We stopped by Walgreens to pick up a thermometer for her (she was sick afterall) and then dropped off the movies to Blockbuster. And we started heading back to base.

“I’m havin’ trouble readin’ ya.”

“Reading me? What do you mean?”

“Y’know, your body language, I mean, you’re talkin’ a lot all of a sudden.”

“Yeah I know, I don’t know why, I think it’s just me bein’ sick…”

“Uh-huh…”

I just stared at her. Such a pretty face, I missed her so much. She always smiles and squirms when I stare at her like that. It’s cute.

“Y’know it’s not safe to distract the driver like this…”

I bring up the topic that was still left unresolved. She was reluctant, but agreed to discuss it.

“Let’s go somewhere else, I don’t wanna go back to base, and I can’t drive and discuss this either.” She says, turning around. The drive to the park stays pretty quiet.

Amy had not gone for walks while down in NOLA because of all the crime. I had promised her we’d go for an evening walk when I got down. So when we got to the park, I just tried to enjoy it for what it was. It was a large park, quiet. We started walkin’ and talkin’ and jokin’ like nothin’ was amiss. And I was enjoying it, I really was. Part of me wanted to forget about why we were there. Wanted to just enjoy that moment.

*****I'M TYPING UP THE REST OF THIS ENTRY AS YOU READ THIS JUST GIVE ME A FEW*****

[Gigabitch]

He's pretty good with these cliffhangers, isn't he?

[Junket]

I was collecting my thoughts as we walked silently. What was crazy though, all of a sudden this big ass shooting star flew across the sky. It was amazing. Keep in mind we’re in a city so most of the stars were barely able to be seen. But this shootin’ start was not only big, but it flew half way across the sky before it disappeared. It got us talking about the time we walked down to docks in Charleston one night and while we were sitting and talking on the pier, a dolphin surfaced less than 15 yards from where we were.

Crazy, to say the least. Things I’ll never forget.

We found a bench and started talkin’. I told her again that I was sorry for the other night. That she meant more to me than I realized and that I couldn’t just let her go like that. But I no longer wanted to be a burden to her because I thought it was simply unfair of me.

“This is crazy…”

“Why, what do you mean?”

“We just did a 180.”

“180? How?”

“It sounds like you just went rational and I just went completely irrational. I have a confession. I told my sister about what you said the other night.”

“Ha! Oh great, that’s just what I need. I’m really sorry about the whole ultimatum thing, but it was all I had left. I know ultimatums are bad way to go about anything like this. Take it from me, this is a guy that posts in a love forum in his spare time, you pick up a few things.”

“Well I told her what you said, and that you were being completely irrational and ridiculous. And I thought she’d back me up on that, y’know because she’s my sister but she was like 'alright, well you need to go find that boy, right now!' But now it sounds like you’ve given up when I’m all ready to just “go for it”.

Is there a God? I don’t know, but I felt like there was at that moment, so thank God for her sister. Earlier that day actually, her sister Mary and her brother-in-law actually invited me to Texas for Christmas. Crazy, huh? Ames didn't even know about that little detail.

“But if you’re sick of all of this, I understand. I’ve left you hangin’ for so long, I wouldn’t blame you.”

I watched her as she was shivering there on the bench. She had on capris and just a t-shirt. Her hair all pulled back in a pony-tail, with just a little bit hanging in her face.

Beautiful.

“Are you cold?” I ask, avoiding directly responding to her last statement.

“Yeah, but I think it’ll help me get better.”

“What’s your logic?”

“I dunno, cold kills bacteria and stuff don’t it?”

“Heh, not quite Ames, the reason why people are more prone to sickness in the winter time is because the body puts so much energy into staying warm their immune systems take a hit.”

“Oh, yeah, that makes sense, I don’t even know what I was thinking.”

I just watch her, my staring makes her uncomfortable so she is usually turned away from me. I start weighing my options. Should I? Shouldn’t I?

“Here, c’mere.” I gesture her to move over. She scooches close and a wrap my arm around her. And with my other, I take her hand in mine.


And I think I'll end this here. I hope most of you are satisfied with how things were resolved. But truthfully I don't give a shit because I'm damn happy how things turned out. I will be posting a separate thread later focusing on the more "intimate" details so keep an eye out.

Love.

I'm swimmin' in it.

[Mathias]

Big thumbs up to you, Fras. Way to be.