Confusion

[NewlyBroken]

Hello again
Well, I've been thinking about talking to him this weekend when he's back from USA. But looks like he decided to break up with me via e- mail. Generally he sent me e- mail where he say he can 't go to Paris with me as things between us are not as they should be. In his opinion we get well and have lot of fun but we're different. Reason for differences given are: I want to get married and have family ( well, someday) and he's not ready yet (like anyone expects to marry after knowing each other for few months). The second reason are cultural and language differences which according to him prevent us from getting close.
Well, fair enough. I didn't answer in typical, female melodramatic way- just informed him I was going to have a chat with on Subday when he's back and just ask if he wants to be with me and if not then I'd gave to leave as can't be with someone who doesn't love me. He thanked me for being honest. Very business like conversation.
I'm bit annoyed I didn't have these thoughts earlier as would break up with him before his trip and wouldn't have to stress about it. It's just except his decrease in contact nothing was wrong.
Anyway- what I'm trying to do now is to believe that being 30 years old woman and not having anyone doesn't mean I'll be on my own till the end of my days. This time I'm going to stay single for a while but not sure how I have to manage- never been on my own longer than 3 months. But time I won't be looking. That much I learnt. I don't have many friends- most of them are married with children, so we're not in touch very often. I live with three single people who we consider as friends and it's a big help. But I have a lot of free time- my job isn't tiring or demanding. I'd go and do something like a language course etc. but don't have enough money left after paying my bills. I know I have to make myself busy and happy same time. Any suggestions?

[searock]

If you aren't looking for a romantic partner, and have enough friends to keep you happy, you don't need to find a social hobby if you don't want to. It actually seems to me like you need to get back in touch with yourself, you need to learn how to be happy by yourself.

How about taking walks (or jog) in the park and sitting down with a good book? You can also start experimenting with your cooking skills, try out new recipes for you and your housemates. If you want to learn a language but can't afford a course, you can always teach yourself one: pick one that is similar enough to your own, and that you have maybe studied a bit in school already. You can also practice your photography skills (or drawing, or writing), if you have an artistic vein.

Or, if it's social stuff that you want, you can volunteer in a local charity, or a dog refuge if you like animals, or something.

There are plenty of opportunities :-)!

[NewlyBroken]

Hey,
Well, thank you for advices.
Not sure what should say right now.