Tell me how to move on....

[ecojeanne]

thats normal, it's crucial you don't bow down, seriously otherwise she really will know she can get away with anything if you do, be strong my friend

[soulsurvivor23]

Thank you, you guys have been really helpful..

[soulsurvivor23]

Ok... so now i'm really pissed. again. I spent all day avoiding her, doing other things. I turned off my phone. Deleted her from facebook, blocked her e-mail etc... Then she calls my HOUSE and my dad picks up and tells me I have a phone call... In the back of my mind I was thinking, what are the chances of it being her? And it was her... and I was beyond livid... Because it's like all the progress i made for the day was erased.. And I found myself instantly just yelling at her and telling her as many hurtful things as I possibly could.. Which I know is not the right thing to be doing, but man I was so mad that she had called my house and forced her way into speaking with me after I pretty much told her she's dead to me.

[soulsurvivor23]

Wow.. i'm now turning into a person I can barely even recognize.. I actually called her back and just lit her up with insults.

I told her that she's a bitch, that I hate her, that I don't know how I could've loved a tramp like her. I told her that it's funny to me that she "can't" leave her bf due to her promise, but that itdidn't stop her from making out with me multiple times, holding my hand, calling me every night, and telling me how much she loved me every night. I asked her if all that was part of her promise *silence* then I said that there's nothing on this earth that means less to me than she does. That we're never gonna be cool again, I never want to hear her voice or see her face again, and that she was a complete and total waste of my time...

Wow, that was a mouthful... Then she started crying, and worst of all, I don't even feel bad. I felt like there was MORE I wanted to say and that the crying was a hindrance so I just said have a nice life. Bye. And hung up.

Its like this aweful person is just charging out of me and I don't know how to stop it.

[ecojeanne]

keep releasing here but take it handy with the anger with her, it's good for you, only don't blow your top completely

[soulsurvivor23]

Should I apologize to her? Or just let it be.

[ecojeanne]

don't start apologising, just leave it, that just opens your door to manipulation if you do, no contact man...go out and have fun with friends without contact, don't start thinking about guilt coz you will end up at square one

[shlawphlwlunk]

When I was 17 I was in love with a girl. The relationship was an utter failure. She basically dumped me by getting a new boyfriend and writing a letter to me passively mentioning it. I was really upset about it. It took me about 5 years to get over it. In the end.. I duno if I ever really did. Duno if that's very useful to you. Make sure you find a new girl.. Get someone else in your life. Do not spend time thinking or caring about what happened. Look to the future, and don't look anywhere else. People can get so caught up in the experience of being heart broken.. And that is not productive. You have to go live, go blow some shit up .. or something like that. Yeah, try that

[soulsurvivor23]

Well for me, that kind of thing happened to me too, when I was 18 though. Now i'm 21, almost 22, and entering my final year of college so it feels different now. The girl from when I was 18 I was really hurt and upset about it for a long time, but when the dust settled i realized that i'm just a teenager and it happens. As for this, I felt like I really knew what love is now. Like I knew what I wanted and I knew who I wanted to spend my life with and it was her..... So if I ever get over this I see i taking a ridiculously long amount of time.