Originally Posted by
CAM
Nah. Can't bring myself to do that. Once I round that bend, then I'm a hypocrite and I don't deserve love. At least at this moment, I'm just not getting love. Better that than not deserving it.
The cleaning lady touched me twice today (hooo...ahhhh...bfd, right?). She combed my hair out of my eyes while we were briefly talking. Then she gave my hand a squeeze as we parted and gave me the big smile and soft eyes.
I think she likes me, which kind of sucks....for both of us.
That's just the lonely talking, Cam. The time of year. But you are fortunate to have loving family, that's a lot to be thankful for.
Second thoughts can generally be amended with judicious action; injudicious actions can seldom be recovered with second thoughts.
--Cyteen by C.J.Cherryh