Don't apologize ffs... Just tell your friend that you don't want to hear about her or her psychotic shit anymore. DH... it's obvious that she has issues and to have ANYTHING in ANYWAY to do with her is just going to set you back. Psychotic people have that ability, don't cha know .
Now, I must go listen to the song that that psycho in Silence of the Lambs danced to cause it's now stuck in my head.
Cheers.
*snipped*
Here's the real song.. I actually quite like it:
[url]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X_DVS_303kQ&feature=related[/url]
Last edited by Wakeup; 20-08-11 at 03:35 AM. Reason: I snipped first link... thought it too raw.
“The willingness to accept responsibility for one’s own life is the source from which self-respect springs.” ~Joan Didion
lol... Yea, In fact I had Youtube link up but snipped it because I though it might get censored by the mods. Funny bit.
“The willingness to accept responsibility for one’s own life is the source from which self-respect springs.” ~Joan Didion
YAY page 10!!!
I knew you could do it DH
I thought I would add what I did. There is a lot of playfulness about it but when you think about it it really is a hard thing and very sad too say goodbye when you have had som much together.
I was madly in love with this guy. It was worse than a crush, sprung, a fool. He knew and he Loved the attention and I did not care I loved giving him all the attention he wanted. He owns a forum like this one except for fitness and we were friends for a good 7 months before I just felt head over heals for this guy. I went a whole 10 months trying to get him to take the next step and tell me I was something special to him. I'm cute and attractive and he is to me exactly my type and I am so picky. We did flirt a lot and not many girls on his site although he was very adamant about being celibate and I llllloved that so I became celibate too.
OMG, bombshell ready, then one day out of the blue I see some photos of him in an expensive car. Its even hard to say now thinking back. He went to Miami,, Florida. He started [osting pictures of himself with strippers. Argh, then I asked him if he had sex and he said "no". When he got back he admitted to everyone on the forum he had given up his celibacy and to off all people an escort type girl and even the strippers he said all felt up on his penis and he is endowed very well......I was crushed more than words can express.
I couldnt believe I had been commenting on his trip the entire time and he even commenting back. He said he knew he "had done some things he shouldnt have" well I just about melted down. I did actually, I took norcos, vicodin, percocet, xanax, valuum, seraqual....only about for a week and a half I could barely hold my face off of a pilllow.
Theres more to the story of course I only fell apart so much because i was devoted to him though he would not commit I had enough commitment because I was the woman in his life flirting with him daily and he was celibate, for years and years, and I loved playing the role of his crush. I went through a lot this year. I lost my job and my apartment and I couldnt find a good enough job to support myself and I had no family support and it was tough!! Oh my, it has been a long year for me and then he just did what he did and of course I HAD to block his facebook.
Omg all the comments I left I had to erase immediately. Our messages I couldnt see his face, I didnt want to know what his updates were, I was repulsed I had even loved someone so deranged to let me get so close to him and at least give your celibacy up for a date or romance but a whore...I wept, weeping is not sobbing, deep crying is silent and your chest pulses and tears pour slowly one by one and stream together and my cheeks had water marks. I made him feel so bad because I had just recieved a bunch of money and I wanted to give him a bunch of it! Then I told him I would give him none and then someone stole half of my money!! Not online but in my real life it was over 10k. On top of all this.
I stopped going to his forum, I was his first friend on youtube and it wasnt too hard to erase but I was so sad to see my picture leave his #1 friend place. Then blocking his facebook immediately was good because the sight of his face sickened me, but slowly I missed his updates and his pictures and his comments and him period. I still miss him I even stopped caring that he did what he did but I can never unblock him or play crush with him on his site. I dont want love ever. I dont want anything but a long long forever sleep so dearly.
I have felt like I have moved on. Lots of guys talk to me often and even right away a friend of his tried to get me on a rebound and it did save me a lot of grief but I still have no intention of giving in to anyone and my heart will be his for a long time if not for the rest of my days. I hate to say it but it just became a new world in my life and a dark one I dont want to be in.
So yes it is good to block their facebook, its just what is left after is that all you had before and its just as much as then. You just love someone so much. You just love them with their facebook blocked and know it is because you love them. And keep on being the person that you are because you are the one who had the strength to be the hero when everyone else was the villain you saved yourself by letting it hurt.
Wow, what a story! It sounds like you're well over the worst of it though thankfully.
"Never make someone your priority, when to them you are only an option"
Nogrip: Please tell me you at least met this guy and you didn't let him ruin your life over only knowing him through the internet. If you never met him then please get yourself some therapy because allowing yourself to become that emotionally attached to somone you've NEVER met isn't normal thinking.
“The willingness to accept responsibility for one’s own life is the source from which self-respect springs.” ~Joan Didion
I didn't click on the first time, but re-reading that it does sound like an entirely on line crush!!
If so..... :rolleyes:
"Never make someone your priority, when to them you are only an option"