Basically, I went to house party and all of my friends were 'getting' with boys that were there, all accept me because I have a boyfriend. There was alcohol involved, of course, so we were all pretty much up for doing all kinds of crazy things!
My best friends boyfriend jokingly told his best friend that I like the 'D' and I didn't think anything of it. It wasn't until he started chatting me up that I knew what his intentions were.
He said things like 'if you didn't have a boyfriend, would you ever consider getting with someone like me ? ' and ' what do you rate me out of ten?' and 'I really want to kiss you, you're beautiful'.. Things like that.
We went into another room, to get away from the loud music and he started asking me questions about school ( we've been in the same school since we were 3) so we were just talking about teachers but, that was interrupted when one of my friends decided to regurgitate all over the floor! XD anyway.. He started being very flirty and I said 'I have a boyfriend , I could never do this to him' which is true I'm one of those people that would never even think twice about cheating when in a relationship with someone however, under the influence of alcohol is a different story.. One thing lead to another and we were kissing and he started talking very dirty and it was so so hard to stop! The amount of times I tried pushing him away was never ending but I gave in because I couldn't help myself!! In that one minute just by kissing him, he made me reconsider my relationship and think I deserve this kind of physical and emotional love (not saying I love the guy but I did fancy him a little from that point on )
We did end up doing more than kissing and he did grope me everywhere .. And lots of it! He said just before he was about to 'O' that he wanted to *** on my stomach but I said no , do it in your underwear! But he didn't listen and did what he wanted.. Thing is I was really disgusted at the time because 1) he *** on me when I told him not to, and 2) I was thinking about the mess because I didn't want to be woken up covered in *** and also him dirtying my friends duvet..
I really like him but I think I offended him too much for anything more to happen.. I attempted to talk to him but he just read it and ignored.. If I were to apologise to him what should I say ?
And yes I know I may have cheated but things haven't been working out well between me and my boyfriend so I thought what the hell, do you what you feel is right! So I did ..
Also I got very upset because I had only known this boy for a few hours and he already has me weak at the knees .. His friends were also encouraging this because they were saying things like 'he's been hurt and deserves someone like you '