I went to the doctor today, and all went well. It was nice to just talk to her about how I was feeling etc. I'm going to try out Welbutrin for a while and see how that goes- it should give me some more energy she said and it might even help me with quitting smoking haha.
Things have been going really well for us lately. Very minimal fighting and I actually kind of just opened up to him and told him I feel like I'm going crazy and that the stress of all the fighting was just kicking me while I was down. We did have a fight last week but it was over something really ridiculous and I actually was the bigger person for once, and told him we both just need to step away and come back when we were less mad. I've been reading a lot in LF and it really did help to just walk away for an hour and come back- cooler heads prevailed and we talked it out. It wasn't even regarding all of this, just a silly disagreement that escalated because we're both a bit shaky after everything.
He's been really supportive and understanding about how I'm feeling- I think things are gradually getting better everyday. I also bought one of those sun lamp things and I'm going to try that out too tomorrow and see if it makes a difference on just pulling me out of my crappy moodiness.
My doc also sent me for bloodwork to test for signs of PCOS and to check my thyroid, B12 and ferratin levels (spelling? sorry) just to see if maybe I have some hormones out of whack or something. I feel really positive about all of it and I'm hoping it'll bring me up out of my funk.
I think if I can be a stronger person, I'll be able to better handle all of this and be a better wife as well. We'll see!
Oh and I have been to the gym the past two days and actually started yoga, which has been really relaxing, I think I'm a fan for life.