Hi

I'm 21 years old and in the mittle of the biggest crush in my life. I met this guy a year ago when we went to a 6 months course in gymnastic together. During the course we had a thing going - mostly sexually, but the more time we spend together the more we began to like each other. When the course ended i was devastated since he lives 5 hours away from me = the relationship would probably end when we both started studying.
Over the summer we met every other week and we have been texting non stop every day since the course ended. As the summer went by and we both started studying, our "long distance relationship" continued. He has moved and now lives 1,5 hour away from me. We started to meet up every two weeks and always spend the most amazing time with each other - acting like a couple seriously in love. In november we both went to the same party where we had "the talk" drunk (stupid.... i know). He then explained that he really liked me and didn't had the need to see other girls, BUT that he at the same time wasn't interested in a serious commitment right now since he (before the course) just had ended a 4 year long relationship with his ex. I accepted the fact that he wastn't interested in being serious, but at the same time i was pretty sad inside and felt like a 2 week booty call that he kinda played around with. Even though, we continued to meet up like we used too (getting closer and closer) and around christmas he called me drunk asking me to be his girlfriend. I just laughed and waved him off (cause he was drunk and fell asleep in the phone), but couldn't help but wonder if he really meant what he said? Since then we have been meeting up a lot more often than usual, acting more and more like a couple.

I really want to have the talk with him again and ask where we stand, cause i'm really confused of what we're doing. But at the same time i don't want to scare him off being too "in his face" and annoying desperate for a relationship. I must admit that i've fallen in love with him, and i really don't wanna loose him to another girl. I do trust him, but at the same time long distance is solo hard to do for me since i miss him a lot.

- i'm so confused, what should i do?

Love the hopelessly in love girl