After everything he's done to you... told you to fk off basically and then cries when you do, doesn't that tell you that he's really in need of some therapy? Know; that you can't fix him and he can't fix you either. Where is your self-respect, your love of self? Why would you harrass a man that has told you he doesn't want you and he never will to the point that he puts a restaining order on you. When do YOU GET THE HINT? Seriously!
You've lost family and friends over an mentally issued young man who could NEVER EVER give you a decent, functional life free of emotional stress. Never will you ever be able to trust that he won't do this to you again when his particular brand of psychosis takes over his better judgement. Never ever will he be able to trust you again that you won't go bunny boiler on him and blow up his phone, email etc to distraction.
ITS OVER; You now have to accept that his trying to hoover you back is just part of his own mental illness that fuels his ego. Knowing that you'll run to him like faithful black lab whenever he calls or wants a cuddle is simply an ego stroke and it does not mean he wants you or loves you in the least.
Zero contact. Block and delete him from being able to get through to you. Go to your school councelor if you need help with going cold turkey withdrawl. You're wasting your emotional health on him, you'll be failing your courses due to him, you'll be making yourself with even less confidence and self-esteem if you continue to let him play with your emotions.
Take back you personal power and stop talking to someone who is sick in the head. You can't fix him and he doesn't want you trying. DONE! OVER! Time to heal and get to the stage of indifference to him thru zero contact and keeping busy doing things you like with people you like. MOVE ON! No more clinging to hope, no more allowing him to abuse you emotionally. No more you trying to pursuade him to come back. You don't need him back... he's ****ed up. There are men who won't do what he does to you. In time you'll find one but only if you let this one go for good in heart and mind.
Last edited by Wakeup; 05-10-13 at 01:16 AM.
“The willingness to accept responsibility for one’s own life is the source from which self-respect springs.” ~Joan Didion