I know i hurt her and i have to let her go but i cant so i put a map in an envelope and said i would wait for her every Monday at the location for the one in a million chance that she would come
What? You watch waaaaay toooo many Hollywood romantic comedies there, fleaflea. You'd be better off going to the gym every Monday (and more often), honing your body, going out and finding someone else while implementing the lessons this girl you couldn't be bothered with has taught you.
How many Mondays are you going to waste before you wisen up? Only one I hope then contact her to tell her goodbye *for good.*
And to listen to someone who has broken up with someone 4 times is ridiculous. If you're meant to be together, if you're compatible enough to last a LIFEtime, then there will be no breaking up four bloody times.
“The willingness to accept responsibility for one’s own life is the source from which self-respect springs.” ~Joan Didion