off and on for 8 years and you don't have her phone # that is a bad sign. say " sorry that i haven't always been as thoughtful to your feelings and situations as I could have been, I hope you take me as sincere and i never wanted to make you feel bad" along those lines, how can we supply you with words when we don't know your wrong doings against her the last 8 years?
When I tell the truth, it is not for the sake of convincing those who do not know it, but for the sake of defending those that do.
William Blake