Well, its been 5 and a half weeks today since my gf of 5 years, my first love dumped me because she didnt feel the love anymore, was worried over my ambition to find a job and drive became bored and wanted to be single and felt bad for always nagging, didnt want to feel like an "old married couple". We met two days after and we were going to give it another shot, she kissed me, held my hand, told me she loved me and wished everyday could be like this, but she changed her mind, saying she couldnt do it, couldnt be expected for everything to go back to normal so fast, that its not enough, but wished everyday could be like that because she was so happy and in love. this was the day after we met. we have had contact but its been tense she has initiated maybe three times and me maybe 6. two mornings i woke up to missed calls from her where she was out drinking and she just would apologize. Last week she drunkenly called me ( not the first time since the breakup, didnt answer the two other nights) and i answered this time, she declared her love for me and that she never stopped loving me, expressed her delight at my new job and progress on driving, we were soul mates and how much she has missed me, her life was terrible without me and wanted to meet. she wanted to come over and for me to hold her while we slept but i rejected because she was too drunk. She took it back the next day saying she thinks she only misses me as a friend and just kept apologizing. We have been in no contact for a week now which coincided with her been on an all girls foreign holiday. I feel the girl is very confused. Its been a tough 5 weeks, periods of me begging and kept texting to where she wouldnt eventually contact me back at the start, to moments of NC, which she would break with random stuff. I feel a much stronger person and although foolishy i still have hope of a reconciliation, im trying to be a better person. shes a stubborn girl though and will only initiate contact sparingly, what should i do? i want her back but afraid its getting late, her friend said to just give her time and space and see if we miss each other, what do yee advise? does anyone else think she is confused?