i'm 15, n I'm sick of life. its all so very boring. i want some excitement! i want to try different drugs n i want to steal someting! i wanna sneak out n do someting crazy. i want to feel on edge every second coz i might get caught! i feel like soon, i'll be an adult, n time for fun n shenanigans will be over. i'll hav to make mature, responsible decisions bout everyting. everyone relies on me to do that NOW! i dont wannna be my my insane mums rock, or my friends goto person or anything like that!
but i have to much responsibility n too many people dependin on me, n WAY to many people that would despise me if i did any of those things. i couldnt handle losin everyone for that.
i've literally drove myself insane n to burning myself, i feel so trapped. wat do i do?