So, I'm 29 years old and been divorced for 5 years as of next month. I've been single for all 5 of those years without so much as a single date. Had sex 3 times during that 5 year period, all 3 of those times were with my ex during times that she was single and not getting anything from anyone else.
I've been offered to be set up on several dates by a few of my friends. But I always turn them down because I already know that the dates will go badly and I'll just end up feeling 10 times worse about myself than I already do now. And yes, I realize that's a terrible way to look at things, but that's been the experience of my entire life so that's all I have to base my opinions on. When all you know is disappointment, rejection and failure...that's all you come to expect.
I've always been shy, talking to women has always been nearly impossible for me to do, which is why I've remained single for these past 5 years. Women just don't like me. I honestly have no idea how I ever convinced my ex to be with me in the first place. I'm fairly certain that she did it because she lost a bet or just felt sorry for me or something.
Also, I'm only attracted to women that will never find me attractive at all. Honestly, my standards aren't that high...I know that I'm not very attractive so obviously I'm never going to be able to date a model or anything like that. But the only women that are attracted to me (and they are far and few between in the first place) I have no attraction to them at all.
Do I just need to completely give up on the idea of finding someone that I'm actually physically attracted to and just date someone that I can't stand looking at? Because apparently that's my only options...be alone, or date someone that I don't find at all attractive.
I realize this is probably coming off as extremely shallow. But I'm really not. I know that there is more to a person than their looks. But I also know that for a relationship to work there has to be at least a little bit of attraction there.
Anyways...I'm 29 years old and giving up on ever being with another woman...in a relationship, as a friend, as a drunken one night stand...none of those are ever going to happen so what's the point of even trying anymore. Not really sure why I'm sharing this here with all of you people that I don't know...but I don't really have anyone else to tell, so....yeah...
Feel free to let me know how pathetic I am for giving up at "such a young age". That's all that anyone else has to say.