Im in a sticky situation right now. I dated a guy 2 years ago for 11 months. we broke up over something so stupid (if you want to know just ask) and now, i dont know if he still loves me though he has told me he does but hes dating someone right now that just had his daughter.
Now, my feelings for him are still very strong. Since we broke up, i still think about him everyday, dream about him and occassionally cry when Im alone because i miss him. I know that deep in my heart I really do still love him just like it was 2 years ago, but this time i think we will work out alot better now that we are older and wiser and have been apart for so long. for the past 2 years, i havent been able to find someone i really like because i still have these feelings for my ex. Ive dated a few people and broke up with them because im not happy. I strongly believe that the only thing that will make me truely happy is to be with my ex again. Id do anything for that day to come.
My ex and his current girlfriend just had a daughter. and anytime ive talked to my ex about his relationship with his girlfriend, all i get out of him is, i dont love her (though ive heard them say i love you to each other) and he made it clear that they were not going to get married because of the baby and a few months after the baby is born, his girfriend and the baby would move out of his house.
I have the gut feeling that they will end up getting married and living together forever, like one little happy family. Now, my ex has broken down to me a few times before and told me he still loves me he wishes we never broke up and he wishes it was me having his baby rather then his current girlfriend. He has also said that later down the line after his life settles down, that we would get back together like it should of been in the first place, but i dont know if i should keep waiting for that day to come of if i should move on and keep searching for mr. right. Ive had a real hard time in that department!
I want more then anything to wait for him but sometimes i just feel too lonely without a man around to cuddle with and talk to. I want that man to be my ex though, no one else. Im completely lost as to what to do, can someone please give it a shot at some good advice? Id really appreciate it. Im tired of holding all this in.