Hello, Newbie here so sorry to moan immediatly
I am feeling very out of love with my husband, in fact I don't like him much to be honest.We have been married 8 years today (yeay) and together for 13. We have a 7yo son who I wanted but husband was never very keen on him. He was ill as a baby so maybe the bonding never took place but he never held him, fed him, changed him, put him to bed any of the things I would have liked him to do. He is cynical and quite critical as well. 3 years ago I fell pregnant again and when I told him he told me to 'go and sort it out' I was devastated and after several weeks of high emotion I felt so backed into a corner I had a termination. I suffered depression after and have not fully recovered. I have continued to do everything I can for my husband but I just feel like I never get anything in return. The resentment has built up and built up and now I find myself anxious and worried and will do most things to avoid being in the same place as him. I don't like him to touch me but I know how highly he values sex so I normally just get on with it. I don't enjoy it at all though as it always reminds me of the baby we didn't have.
I know he loves me in his own way but I don't feel the same. Even when I tell him what I want from him he seems unable to change and I still end up running two businesses, the whole house, the child and my animals.I am a very hopeful person and I keep on hoping something will change . I hate living like this but I am not brave enough to leave I don't think
any advice?