I don't actually suffer from clinical depression, that's not what it is. The depression itself is a part of bipolar disorder, which taking anti depressants can actually make worse.
I have been diagnosed with both bipolar disorder and social anxiety disorder/avoidant personality disorder. After talking with a mental health professional, not in a clinical situation though, she said that there's a very high chance I also suffer from borderline personality disorder on top of that.
So it's not a matter of just 'being depressed' about the situation, it's a whole slew of other things, which heavily factor into the reason I got myself into this mess in the first place.
In regards to the girl in another state that I'm 'chasing', she's the subject of this whole ordeal. She's the friend whom I screwed up with and hurt badly. The other thread is DIRECTLY related to this one, as it all revolves around the one situation.
"Life is what you make it, watch your Karma and you will be happy in life. Always trust your heart and let God guide you as he will never lead you astray."