Hi everyone,
This is my first post, so I apologise if I have repeated any previous threads, but I am currently desperate for any advice. I will try and keep this as short as possible.
I am in my early 20s. I have recently come out of a relationship with my long term girlfriend, which lasted just over three years. We were engaged and owned a property together, which makes it all the more difficult, but fortunately, at the moment, things are being dealt with amicably. Just before the relationship with my started I admitted to two very close friends, that I was gay. At the time, I felt reasonably sure of this. When I met my girlfriend, I then told my friends that I had made a mistake. It was an error of judgement. They were understanding, although doubtful. Being the good friends that they are, they simply stated "whatever makes you happy". Throughout the relationship, I had doubts in my mind, but continued because I felt this was the only way to be happy. In the last year of the relationship, things were essentially no longer physical between us, and we grew more and more distant despite living in the same house together.
Prior to meeting my ex girlfriend, I had had a brief sexual relationship with someone of the same sex along with a number of experiences prior to that. Family and friends have also asked me at points in my life whether I am gay. I used to always brush this off negatively.
I am now having sleepless nights, and I am not entirely sure why. I don't know where to turn or how to proceed my life. Once the relationship ended with my ex, I had a very clear opportunity with another girl that I turned down. It was purely sexual but I just wasn't interested.
Any advice would be much appreciated, and thank you to anyone who was patient enough to read through that.
Many thanks