Will try to keep this as brief as possible.
I've got an invitation to a party for a semi-friend of mine.
The problem is, my ex-girlfriend (6 mo. since break-up) and her new boyfriend are certain to attend this party.
This is a problem because the last time I ran into my ex (high school reunion), I turned into an
introverted, grumpy alter ego. I completly ruined my own evening and others by being over-the-top rude and condescending
towards anybody who tried to initiate conversation.
I'm quite confident in most social situations, but this time I felt that I had to value myself towards her.
That led me to being unusally nervous, which in turn led me to being rude and short towards everybody, especially her.
Had a brief conversation with her at this reunion in which she told me that I "had changed" and so on.
My reply was a simple analogy that could be translated to a simple "Stop bothering and f*** off".
I 'happily' admit that I'm not over her, she is exceptionally beautiful and kindhearted and bla bla bla. Just thinking of her
gets me into a dreary state of mind.
Whenever she's not around I can deal with my "broken heart" more easily and be the same easy-going guy I've always been, but when she's around
I turn into this bitter, rude douchebag.
So I guess my question would be if anyone has any advice for me on how to deal with the stress of her being in my immediate surroundings?