Hi everyone,
I'm Lyla, im new here and I was wondering if you could help me! Here is my situation;
I have been with my boyfriend for two years. When I met him, I was desperate for someone as I was so lonely and had never had a long term boyfriend before (I'm in my 20s). I got pregnant within 4 months and we moved in together and had our baby. Things have been rocky. I don't really love him and when I met him he was rude, had no manners, dependent on his mother, lazy and without any social skills. I have tried to help (or change?) Him and he's quite a lot better.
The problem is that I'm not sure whether to stay with him. He's slighly more mature, excellent with our daughter, inexplicably loyal and loving towards us and does everything in his power to please us. but still.. Just not mature enough for me and lacks social skills still. He embarrasses me in front of people because he always says the wrong thing. I never want to have sex with him, I don't fancy him and I don't love him in the way I should.
I do love him as a friend and I'm scared of breaking up with him incase I regret it. I don't think I will ever find someone as devoted or loving, and am scared of being on my own. I suggested to him a break and he cried, so we're back to where we were. I don't want to hurt him but I know that he will be devastated and heart broken if we break up.
What shall I do? Am I a fool if I let him go? I have a semi comfortable life as he looks after me well. I'm at the point now where I have to make a decision. I know he is going to propose next year and I don't want to let it get that far without making a decision.
Any advice or opinions greatly appreciated. Thank you xxx