In 8th grade i had a huge crush on this really quiet girl. I realized i had a crush on her after my friend made a funny face at her and she smiled. In my freshman year of high school my friend found out i liked her and since he can't keep a secret he told some people. This girl found out and asked the girl i like if she liked me. She said no , but im sure that's because she doesn't know me, im like a stranger to her anyone would of said no if asked if they like some stranger.
So the next day during gym she was staring at me from far away and i looked back at her a few times. I thought i would have plenty of other chances to get to know her , but i was wrong. I had no classes with her throughout the rest of high school. This made me depressed for a long time. Now im in college and every once in a while i will cross her path and 2 days out of the week after my class i will walk by her as she sits on a bench waiting for her ride to come.I keep wanting to say hi and can't. Every time i don't say something it makes me depressed.
So i swore to my self today i would say hi and maybe followup with a "didn't you go to ____ high school,i want there to. so how do you like college?" As usual i chickened out.. i tryed to at the least say Hi with a smile ,but my mouth wouldn't move. I was confident i would atleast say hi this time but i couldn't and i felt like crying. Is it wrong i like this girl so much even though i really don't know her at all?I don't want to come off as a creeper because i don't think she even recognizes me since i had long hair in high school and i never really introduced my self to her or even had an actual conversation with her. I don't know what to do anymore... she hasn't left my mind since 8th grade..