I've been with my gf for a year. We've known each other for six years now before she asked me out. My gf won't have sex with me and she recently told me it's because I'm "fat" and she gets "disgusted" just thinking about it. This obviously hurt me. I've been on a weight loss journey for about 10 months. When she asked me out I weight around 210 lbs or around there. I am now in my 150s lbs. She says she's waiting for me to lose more weight. She wants me to weight 100 lbs.
She's 5'8 and weights 138 lbs.
I'm confused, hurt, and sad. I don't feel comfortable with myself. I feel ugly, fat, and disgusting. She does hold my hand sometimes like when we're in the car. She kisses me, well "peck" kisses because she doesn't like to make out. She doesn't let me do anything to her. She says she's the type that likes to satisfy others, but doesn't like others touching her like that.
Am I being overdramatic. :( i've lost so much weight I thought she will accept me for who I am. Turns out she's just waiting for me to be skinny. I'm confused. why would she ask me out if she doesn't like "fat girls"? She doesn't want to break up with me. It was okay not having sex at first, but now it's getting to me. My self-esteem has dropped despite the fact that I get compliments all the time because I lost weight.
I feel like if she doesn't accept me for me right now she doesn't deserve me when I reach my weight loss goal. She says she can't help that she doesn't like fat girls and to just wait and everything will change when I get skinny. :(