Hello all, I need some light shed on a situation that I am going through.
Okay here is the situation. Well I am 22 years old, I am still a virgin. In one way I feel kind of
bad, in another way I feel kind of good. I guess I have mixed feelings about the whole thing. I
never really had a relationship with anyone. I realize that I am no longer in my teens and the
probability of me finding a virgin is low. I do not want the responsibility of passing judgments on
anyone for it is not my place or my lifelong goal, but I think people throwing away their virtue (I
think it’s called) is just kind of wrong. I know that I have done wrong in the past and that is why
I don’t claim to be perfect. Yet, it seems people throw away their virtue just to anyone. Maybe
their is more to it than I understand. Then again I am not trying to point fingers at anyone. I
guess it is my raising. So please don’t thank low of me. Through this I have a bother, if u will,
I really want to be sure to make my other half in every sense especially in the sexual sense.
I guess my main focus is that if and HOPEFULLY when I find that person she will be happy
with me. In a way I would for us both to have a first but I am old enough to know that you don’t
always get what you want and don’t want to settle for just anyone either. I guess I have a fear
of being compared to another person. I would date somebody who has lost their virginity, but
there is that fear factor. I know that this is complex but I can not help but to think about it.
I was kind of wandering if you can, please answer these questions I have. Most importantly give
me your opinion if nothing else, if you would. Thank you.
1. Am I wrong in thinking about it? 2. Am I making a big deal out of it? 3. Knowing that I made
mistakes and done things I am not proud of, should I hold against them or keep on it on my
mind that I was not the first? 4. Do you think I expect to much? 5. If and hopefully when I find
that person, should I express how I feel? 6. I know that I sometimes get insecure and the funny
thing is that I never tried it like I mentioned earlier, I have big fear of failure especially with
something like this, should I have some fear or nothing at all?
I know this is a lot but I have to know. Thanks and May God Bless -rawfan1989
PS: I only aim to please.