I have known this girl for 13 years, we dated on and off for about 8 of them. We have always been best friends. We do have a 4 year old together and we are both excellent parents. We decided 3 years ago that it wasn't working, we still remained best friends. We went on to see other ppl and we were both ok, there was jealousy here in there, but nothing serious. She in fact went on to having a serious relationship with a guy who she moved in with, that lasted about a year. I was ok with that, he was good to her and our son and never tried to take my place as Daddy. They split up about a year ago. She has been single since as I have been too. We started messing around again and it seemed like we were going to get back together. After 13 years she still gives me butterflies. I'm still very much in love with her, I always have been to be honest. The past few months we have been hanging out, we have had sex, stayed the night with each other, went out clubbing etc etc. We haven't done anything in the past month or so because she started seeing someone... She told me a few days ago she was pregnant by this guy. My whole world has feel apart. It's not mine bc we played safe. I don't know why this hurts so bad? I mean we were not an item, I was ok with this new guy. I didn't interfere or try to sabotage it. Now that she's pregnant I can hardly look at her, my stomach gets upset just thinking about it. This is so hard because we have the same friends and live in the same town. I'm dreading the texts/calls when she tells the world
I feel like I have lost a best friend. She doesn't talk to me much anymore. I understand she's going through a lot and probably doesn't have time to chat with me. It's almost like the end. I could never be with her again because of this. She doesn't seem happy about it, she cried the whole time she was telling me the news.
I asked her if he made her happy, she said "yeah for now" They have only been dating for a month. He doesn't look "Daddy" material, i could be wrong. I know it's not my problem and I should be running for the hills lol, but this hurts more than anything I have ever experienced.
I feel like I "have" to let her go now. Us as parents will never change. We will remain good parents. I know she still loves me and I'll always be the one for her. I told her I would be there as her friend, but nothing else. I'm trying to move on and stay out of her business, but I jump when the phone rings hoping it's her