im not here to be judged just need to clear some thoughts and get some oppinions as to why im feeling this?
well im to be marrie to my partner of 15 yrs in the next few months... and im the one who pushed for it ,,,, wanted it ,, but without paying attention at the time to these feelings and thoughts i get of one of his friends,,, i always want to see him , make myself look good ,, and just be around him ,,
we were at a wedding and he said im so beautiful and my partner really should think himself lucky and how i could get anyone ,, also that lucky my partner is here as who knows what he could do with me,, he say it in a flirting way and things like jokng can i keep a secret and i went alng and said yep im a good secret keeper ,, and that my partner wouldnt know if i fell pregnant to him ,,, i went alng with him .... partner was watching us ,,so things didnt go to far ,,
alot of people around...
but why should i feel like this towards him ,,, i do get butterflies .. he and his brother often says to my partner when are w breaking up so they can chase me ..
im not sure if im making a huge mistake marrying ,,, theres alot at stake if i was to have an affair ,, kids, house, stability ...
ive cheated in the past along time aGO,,
anyway what am i doing .. now be honest ?????