I'm deformed... can't really go anywhere because of the constant gawking and staring. I feel like because of our image obsessed society, anybody in this world who's not normal looking is guilty for why people are not happy. I feel like people are upset and disgusted by my deformed face.
Even I feel like God is against me or is disgusted. I seriously feel responsible for why people aren't smiling and laughing. I feel and think that everyone past and present know who I am. I feel this way 24/7 and I always smile and am happy, I feel guilty.
I'm embarrassed because I'm never sad and many people are. I can't bear the thought of people hating and beig discusted with me. Am I guilty and if not, how do I once and for all let this guilty feeling go?