It's another how do I get back with my ex thread. I understand what you're going through, but you seriously have to let it go. You're not going to get your ex back. If you do, it's going to fail anyway, so why not save yourself the trouble and let it go?
I will do my best to reply with an educated, humble and honest answer. Ultimately, it is up to you whether you want to listen to my advice or ignore it completely. Sometimes, my advice may be wrong; occasionally, it will be right. Regardless, I want to do my best to give people answers they are seeking.