This is my first post here and I'm glad I found the website. I'm currently in a relationship with a wonderful girl overseas. I met her 11 years ago while in her country and we kept in contact for a while. Then we lost track of each other and in the past few years are reunited again. I live in the US and have 3 kids from a previous marriage. She has accepted that and feels that we are destined for each other. We do have so much in common and I've never had feelings for anyone like this before. We both are committed to each other and are dating long distance until I can go and bring her home. We are waiting for the courts on an civil matter of mine and her Visa with immigration. The woman is perfect!!!!!!!! I love her with all my heart..........
So.........
Why do I press the self destruct button??? Why am I so scared of getting hurt that I begin to push people away before it happens. She makes me feel wonderful about myself and she respects me. (SIDE NOTE TO WOMEN: If you want a man to know you love him, then respect him... that is our love language) She doesn't give me any reason to not trust her at all. She has me all over her facebook. We write each other and talk constantly. Why is it that I allow my immagination rund wild. She has many friends (some guys) and sometimes she is with them. Sometimes I let my mind and heart get jealous because we are 6000 miles away and I start to push her away.... I don't even know why I do this???
Any thoughts or advise would help. Distance and not being with each other can be a Mother F!