hi, well today's been around 1 month since she broke up with me, the reasons where because i go on and on over things... and is true is a thing i do... and that makes her stress and she does not need that she is pregnant... well, during this month, we've been talking, and as much as i would like to keep a distance, i cant because she is pregnant of my hopefully baby girl
the deal is that i want to go back with her, a lot of times i found myself talking about it and guess what... going on and on about it... i know that doesn't do any good...
she has tell me this a lot of times: i love you i really do, but i don't wanna go through all the stress that could happen...
then one day we where hanging out, i didn't have the idea of going in there and try to get her back, i went there just to talk to the belly a bit and talk to her as well.. but then started to trying to get close, grab my hand and wont let it go, and everything ended up in a kiss... then the next day she was like: is going too quick, we should back up.... i was like.... what did just happened?
then a couple of days ago she told me she was in a fling with sex involved, she said it was just that, and that she was sorry that shouldn't have happened, but she cant go back and fix what she did wrong... i was destroyed...
then i was thinking.... she really meant she loves me? and she doesn't wanna come back because that other guy might be in the pic and they still communicate... or what? i don't get what is going on... and im tired of it... yesterday we talked and as much i tried to play it cool i cried like a baby, and again she told me, i love you i really do but i don't know, i don't wanna put myself to the stress that might happen again, we might come back one day, maybe when the baby is born, or maybe soon, but i don't know, i love you, i do but it doesn't mean we would be together...
i don't understand i would love to be able to just cut all communication and do what everyone does, have some closure, go on with their life, and forget.... i cant do that, i have to be there... and talk to her... and that just hurts...
so question for you girls... what does she mean? I'm confused, and how i could get her back?
thank you all