I wasn't technically, but it was what I imagined being raped felt like.
Ever since the second baby, my sex drive has been at an all time low. Sex is the farthest thing from my mind these days. But of course, my boyfriend doesn't feel the same way.
He's started this new thing where he would just randomly start sucking on my breasts while I'm sleeping. At first, it was like whatever, but now I really ****ing hate it.
Last night he did it, and then climbed on top of me. I didnt want to do it, but I did it to make him happy. I feel like I'm obligated to do things I dont want to do when it comes to our relationship so I can make him happy. I don't want him to go out and cheat on me, so I laid there and did it.
I didn't enjoy it one bit. As a matter of fact, I cried silently throughout the whole thing.
Afterwards I went to bathe and he was sitting on the bed moping. I asked him what was wrong and he said he felt like he raped me.
I explained to him that I felt like I was raped, but I didnt think that was his intention. Now he just randomnly gets all depressed and he's taking it out on me like it's all my fault. He's saying he can't even look at me, like I did something wrong.
I laid there and did something I didnt want to do to try and make him happy and he turns around and takes it the hell out on me? Seriously?! What the hell am I supposed to do??!!
I've been having a rough day, and I would really like you guys' input on how you would've handled it.
I'm on the verge of calling the relationship quits because he wants something that I don't and I can not see myself ever doing that again. It was horrible. My sex drive is even lower now.
A little while ago he grabbed me around my waist and I jumped out of fear. I feel as if I am afraid to have sex.
I know this story sounds pretty ****ing trollish, but I don't know how else to word it, and the situation is affecting my daily life.