Okay, so here's the deal. i'm 17 and a guy, about 25, started courting me a month before my 17th birthday. We're both in college. Of course, I'm too naive to know what to do in relationships so we kissed after two months without us knowing each other that well. I'm already letting him kiss me because I also want it. The thing is, now, after being apart from him for about two months because it's our summer vacation, I just realized what I just did. We are in a relationship whether I deny it or not. I told him he's not my boyfriend yet and even though he disagrees, he just goes with the flow. We already know we love each other, but the thing is, I just realized that he HAS become my boyfriend even though I'm not ready for such a relationship, specially since I think I should know him better first. It has been 7 months since he courted me. I keep thinking we're in a mutual understanding relationship, meaning we like each other, but now I don't even know anymore. I've talked to a friend and he said that since we weren't boyfriend girlfriend, it might as well be called a fling. But we're not a fling! We're not seeing anybody else but each other. The reason why I can't consider him as a boyfriend yet is because I don't think I know him well enough yet, I even wish I could just redo it all and do it right.
I know he's trustworthy judging from what his friends say and from the stuff I've known about him so far. But I don't know what I should do. I don't want to think of it as a fling, but at the same time I'm very unsure. Help, please. I really need advice on this. I don't know if I'm underage for this or not but if anyone would be nice enough to help I'd be so glad.