Hello all advise givers. I am a 19 year old with an on-going problem.
Pretty much it all started when I was 16 during the summer we went to Chicago to somebody's wedding. Normal wedding bunch of cute looking girls and what not. But there was this one chick were I looked at her once and herd her speaking to her friend which made me lose my train of thought through out the whole trip. So it happens to everyone I come back to NY and she still on my mind like all the time. But it's all good ,back in the day I was a player. My rule have a girl for two weeks and leave no problem no love just love extremely simple. So i come back and resume my "dirty work", but this time things are different, the girl face and voice are insanely going through my head all the time i felt like a pycho freak when ever it would happen. Little by little instead of going out with girl and hitting on them I just completely stopped. Its been two years and I've been single my friends think I've lost my even my ex's think its stupid. But maybe I feel enlightened. Instead of hurting and breaking a girls heart I've become someone who helps them instead.
Giving advice to other peoples "love life" and relationships became second nature to me, it looked like I made a u-turn and know this girl's face and voice won't come into my head. But there not a day that goes by where I can't see her in my head. It feels as if I'm lost lately and its been getting worse as of know.It feels as I've been hit with karma lol. I've done a lot of wrong I know but just this face has changed me. Then I thought okay so its just one girl there's many more out there. But I can't do it like i don't have any attraction to any girl besides her. She my aunt friends lil sister, so I found out her name. I tried added her on facebook but to no avail. Then I thought why would she accept a guy who has no mutual friends with her and lives in NY. I tried to think things through both ways. I understand it's extremely stupid for me to say I have fallen in love with this girl. The best option I can get on my own is to forget about her there are many more girls out there. There are fishes in the see I understand that, but my mind won't listen to my heart its freaking retarded it keeps going after the same fish.
Please I'm open ears to any advice like seriously any advice .