Luke, I can't imagine having to work with her every day. I guess I understand why.
That's really sad that it had to come to this for you to officially begin healing. You are burning this bridge to help you and if this was your only option you had no choice. It didn't have to be like this though. I honestly wish you have made more of an effort to do things to make you happy and more of an effort to understand and engrain in your head all the important lessons here. I think that would have truly helped you and avoid a final showdown after four months of agony. Sucking it up and not letting her know it hurts you any more (even if it's obvious that it is) is the most toughness you can show somebody. Most importantly, doing this brought you the farthest away from what you wanted: her. I don't think attempting to be friends helped and you have to not be friends if you want things to work in the future so I guess it was a good thing in some ways. I know you thought that she would never want to come back to you but we can't predict the future. Seeing you like this after 4 months probably didn't help though.
I ultimately hope this got you what you wanted.
Last edited by cmacattack1; 11-01-10 at 01:00 PM.
Waking up next to a beautiful girl,
Step outside and say hello to my beautiful world.