I've been having a lot of trouble sleeping recently and yesterday I really went into myself, just not really communicating and in a generally bad mood for the first time. Now, staying at with the in-laws, they've picked up on this and waited until the girlfriend was asleep. I couldn't sleep as usual and thought I'd go in into the living room where they were and the next thing I know they were completey crucifying me. They said to me that I was no good to her and basically a nutcase. I've suffered depression and anxiety for years and I stupidly told them about it months ago because we got on really well and though I could trust them as sometimes I go into myself and found my grumpy sometimes. Out of nowhere, after one day of being in a generally bad mood, they become very vindictive, throwing depression in my face. They basically ripped me to shreds telling me how much of a loser I am and how they are concerned for my girlfriends safety when she is away at University living with me, after a year of them telling me how well suited we are and how great I am with her little brother. After half of hour being run down and apologetic for my behaviour (and why the **** should I be?) they continued to run me down and I said I'm going to bed and sorry I ruined their day.
Not being able to sleep and trying to find some sort of way to remedy the situation, I could not and had no choice but to wake the Mrs up and tell her. Furious as she was, we both went to sleep and her rents pulled her into the kitchen the next morning and told her my behaviour was unacceptable saying that they've always hated me and they didn't want to offend my girlfriend, hence why the didn't say. Her step father took me for a walk, venting how he is worried about her, saying that I'm prob' like this when we are back at Uni and it's too much stress for my girlfriend. After basically saying, she is safe and they have nothing to worry about, they just did not care, with the father in law playing the typical step father role "I'll go to the ends of the earth to protect her bla bla bla. I went back to the house and the mother in law completely went wild at me, telling me I'm insignificant and have no place there. Accusing me of breaking up the family and telling me that I am driving her grandad into dementia (He suffers from Alziemers) completely blaming me that he has the condition in the first place.
This isn't the first time this has happened, it happened a few months back and a few days ago with her telling me how much she hated me then apologisng the next day saying she was drunk. And more the fool me, always taking the initiative to cuddle her and say let's forget it so she doesn't feel bad, now here I am, with a thumping ****ing discomfort in my chest on edge of having a panic attack and I don't know how to take it. They've completed changed and shown their true colours as vindictive cock sucking bullying bastards.
N.B --- The mother in law in in denial about being an alcoholic who chats openly to me and her daughter about how she isn't happy in her marriage and how she is still in love with her former love after having a 3 year old child with her current partner and yet she stands there and questions and rips the shit out of my relationship.
Just needs to vent Where's the xantax when you need one huh?