Time to vent it out - my non-relationship...
WARNING: huge wall of text, read at your own risk. Also, this is a bit similar to Questionheart's thread on the "ask a male" forum.
It all started in May this year, when my (divorced) dad gave my email address to the daughter of one of his many dates. She's 16, I'm 20 (all legal here in Portugal. I can't date a girl my own age partly because I look way younger than I actually am, and she only goes for older guys). I'm an anti-social freak, she likes to party and go out with her friends. I've never had a relationship (or a kiss for that matter), she's had a few meaningless hookups and a (older than me) boyfriend for about a year, who treated her really badly, leaving her with little ability to trust men. We live about 1:30 hours from each other.
Anyway, we started emailing each other and chatting on msn, and we started developing a connection - although I had no expectations at that point, we (mostly her) told each other pretty much everything about our lives, and had long, more/less deep conversations, eventually leading to our only date. It was July 22nd. :/
After that, the topics of conversation started getting more intimate, with us both admitting to have "stronger than friend" feelings towards each other in different times. But there was a problem - every time I tried to set up another date (and it was quite a few times), she either claimed not to have the time in the day of choice, or agreed only to call it off the day before or the very day of the date, for various reasons.
I got frustrated. I sent her an angry email, calling her out on not actually wanting to see me. She sent an angry answer, we were mad at each other for a while but we eventually made up. Still no dates though, but I kept myself from showing my frustration.
Which brings us to the recent events. Although we are still in good terms, we barely chat anymore - she comes online like once a week, all loving and stuff, barely replies to my text messages, and seems to be drifting away... the last time I heard from her was a week ago - I told her I'd go pick her up from school for a brief chat (I only asked for 5 minutes!) but she said she wouldn't go to school that day (doctor's appointment + last day).
I've sent her an email and several texts since, with no response, even for Christmas.
I've lost her, haven't I? Or rather, I've never had her... but I still love her, and I just can't move on or give up. If at least she'd given me a straightforward dumping, but she never said she didn't like me anymore... guess silence speaks too, no?
Time to stop complaining when there is no reason to. Life's good, man.