I just slept with a guy I really really like. And it was great. Things with the guy were also going great.
Unfortunately I panicked.
We were lying there basking in the afterglow and he got up to have a smoke. I'm generally use to being ****ed over so I'm a little but of an emotional retard. When he got back into bed I was like "So should I stay? I can go home" (we happen to live right across the street from one another)
He just kind of looked at me funny and said, "You can stay, the bed is big enough." but I decided to go. Because clearly I'm an idiot. So now he probably thinks I'm insane because I got all flustered and left. I'm so use to being screwed over that I completely self sabotaged something that was finally going well.
How can I possibly recove from this? Guys help