Shit, Kiechi hasn't been on in forever.
I was just thinking about it as I was whippin' up my daily milkshake.
I'm pretty neutral on being alone for the next couple of days.
Fortunately over time just ended this past week so it'll be easier to handle chores and errands on my own.
However, it's made me realize that I believe I genuinely enjoy my g/f's company. I mean, I tried to think of the "relief" this separation would bring. Like the things that may annoy me on a daily basis. And honestly, I really can't think of anything.
A year ago, it would have been her coming home and complaining how horrible her americorps volunteers were. And I gave her the same advice every day and she never really took it, which was even more frustrating. However, since the new batch has come in, heeding my and other's advice, and learning from last year's mistakes, she's managing them better than ever, and I've done nothing but give her praise on how well she's turned around.
Another thing, (and this is important), is that there's virtually no nagging. Seriously, none. I believe we've both drawn our boundaries and respect them. When I come home, I like to do my thing on the internet, maybe play a game or something. And she respects that. Likewise, she needs alone time as well, more so than me, so when she has her headphones on, accommodating the fact I hog the TV with my Xbox, and is watching her shows, I do my best not to disturb her. She's also kept me pretty well fed during the 2 past months of overtime. If she doesn't cook, it's no big deal because I don't have any expectations.
Really, I feel like this time alone isn't so different from my time with my g/f and roommate. There's just...less people to talk to.
I believe I have a good thing going here.
keep it simple
Self-esteem isn't bragging about how great you are. It's more like quietly knowing that you're worth a lot (priceless, in fact!). It's not about thinking you're perfect — because nobody is — but knowing that you're worthy of being loved and accepted.
"Me, I try to send this note
float it like a paper boat
But paper sinks
and words are weak
i try, but i cant speak"