You were my close friend
Felt like there would be no end.
A bond that would for ever span.
You were beautiful.
Soulful.
Admirable.
You made me blissful.
A woman so strong.
Wasn't long before my heart caught on.
But you died.
The night you gave yourself to a man so full of pride.
You now carry his seed and he makes you bleed.
I can only watch as the friend I had faded.
Hurting inside as we both became jaded.
I saw the pain in your eyes.
I tried to hold it inside.
But I'd break down and ask why
But I saw it from another view.
It could not be true.
I watched as the selfishness grew.
Hurting me so you can maintain a positive image.
Not realizing the downfall your devising.
It slowly became a pile of wreckage.
The girl I knew committed suicide, and got replaced by a selfish side.
All I can do is never forget.
All you can do is hope to not regrete.
You dont remember the times we shared.
Now I question if you really cared.
This Sh* has me feeling sorry for you.
You dug up your own hole and fell right through.
I reached down and you never looked.
Til it was too late cuz my flight was booked.
We had a special night in the bed.
You asked me to stay but I took off instead.
Not knowing if it was fate or you being fake.
Ignoring every call I make.
You forgot the one that stood by your side.
That's why I took that plane ride.
Though the kid's not mine,
I promised to look out for you.
I became more like your brother.
But you crossed the line.
You could have kept your mind in your head.
But you chose the road to hell instead.
With a punk that leaves you bruised and red.
Your stupid girl, why'd you do it?
It trips me out how you blew it.
You took the wrong route
I pray you find a way out.
I dont think I could come back to Chicago.
Cuz I highly doubt, I can brink back a friend that died long ago.
I still miss you, but I gotta move forward. It's not easy accepting it's over.