I went out with my neighbor and two of her friends and invited my bf along last night.
We went clubbing and the strip club was our last stop. As I've said so many times before, I have no probem with going there with a boyfriend. So we were all enjoying ourselves and what's not. My neighbor tells me they're gonna pay for a lap dance for my bf. I said ok no problem.
This is when it goes wrong.
So the chick comes to give him the lap dance, and they're egging him on to touch her. So he started spanking her and grabbing her tits.
Personally, I didnt really care for that, but I told myself this is sorta what I asked for, so I let it go.
Then, he decides to grab her pussy and feel her up....not once.....but throughout majority of the lap dance.
So now I'm sick to my stomach because he could do that in front me, so I could only imagine what he would do behind my back with the boys.
I had no major problems with the night until that moment. I did not expect the so called lap dance to turn into foreplay. It turned my stomach, and when I got home and in the shower, I threw up all my food from throughout the night.
I'm still having vaginal bleeding as if I am on my period, and I believe it is from stress. But I am now more stressed out than before.
I really feel like he crossed the line at that point. I'm trying to forgive him because when we got home and I came out from my shower he was on the floor crying and telling me how sorry he was and he didnt mean to.
It's the fact that he was so easily pressured that has got me so hurt. How can I trust him out on his own if he is so easily pressured in front of me? Am I wrong for feeling this way about what he did?
The lap dance itself did not bother me, but that one particular thing bothered me. I have no problem having a little fun, but there's a line that you shouldn't cross I would think.
I know I shouldnt be stressing myself, but the image is stuck in my head.
I know I would never do it again, though this is the first time I've had this problem.
I really want to get over this and I dont know how to and it is eating me alive. I really believe this baby is going to die and I am asking you guys for useful advice and leave the jokes out of this one because I really would like some good feedback on this.
I'm thinking about breaking up....is that a bad idea? I'm afraid of making a bad decision.